I did not think that this was going to be an easy one. My love of music is as broad and deep as my love for reading. There were some staple songs that always seem to reach deep:
- “Counting Stars” – OneRepublic
- “Heathens” – Twenty One Pilots
- “Wake Me Up” – Avicii
- “On Top of the World” – Imagine Dragons
And a LONG, LONG list of others.
However, this one wound up being more about a moment today than I thought. It is funny how things work out.
Today was an awesome day, on the end of a busy week. But there was something going on that the sheer enormity of the meaning was getting lost in the shuffle. Until we walked into church. This year was Zoey’s first year attending VBS. I know, for some of you there is the resounding, “So What?” and your reasoning is sound.
However, there are many things about Zoey that make things harder than your ‘average’ (almost) 6-year-old. She is adjusting to glasses, hearing aids, and becoming aware. Our little social butterfly is finding there are still times that she is on the outskirts of the groups of kids her own age. It could be her looks, the fact that due to medical issues she is still in diapers, because she is so much smaller than her peers, or for any reason. Kids, are kids. We had to work hard this year to get her to a place where she could attend VBS this year, so damn hard.
She did it! She had a blast. There was not a day that she did not wake up excited, and a night that she did not talk my ear off when I came home. We love our church, and so many of the people in it. They have made all the things that make Zoey different evermore the reason for inclusion. As a community they have showered us with love, deep and honest love. Many have asked questions that no others seem to care too, all to get to know her better.
And today a new song.
Today, something awesome happened. Our little girl joined all her friends from VBS… on the stage… in church… and they sang! I was able to sit and watch my daughter, center stage, sing and dance with so many other kids. It was hard not to cry tears of joy, but they were beaten ceaselessly by my broad smile. Not only is the song that my daughter sang today one that fits right now because of the journey that she has been on, but the lyrics as well.
“I was made for this, I live for this
God has a reason, reason for my life
I’m gonna shout it out, without a doubt
I was born for this, built a for purpose
Built for a purpose
Built for a purpose” (‘Made For This”, GroupMusic,2017 Maker Fun Factory)
My daughter was made for something bigger than I could have ever dreamed of for her. I have been coming to terms with this for the last five years. The interesting thing, that I have hit on at various times, is that I was made to be her dad. The one that she needs. There is something heartwarming and humbling about that fact.
So, for today, at this moment, my daughter singing ‘Made for this’ fits right now, in so many ways.
In fact, here is a video of her singing for you to enjoy. Perhaps you will see that you were made for this, whatever that ‘this’ is for you.
Live big, love bigger, and be kind, always.